I am so excited for them! I just can't believe that my best friend is GETTING MARRIED! It seems so unreal because I feel like only yesterday we were day dreaming about the future and getting married and now the future is here! I didn't think it would come so fast!! But it did, and I am glad! They are perfect for each other and even before Matt asked for her hand in marriage I knew that they would get married. It's one of those feelings in the pit of your stomach that could maybe not be true but you know that deep, deep down inside it is 100% true. Well that feeling was correct because about a month and a half after I had it Matt proposed so there you go!
Now the preparation for the wedding begins! I can't wait until Becca is done with her term in college and she comes back home and we can do the full on planning! I am so excited for the day I can hardly contain it and I know that the feelings will only get stronger and stronger as the day approaches! I can't even begin to imagine the joy that she must be feeling and even the fear too because now she is going to be an adult! A full blown adult!
That's something I never thought would actually truly come either. I feel like you always looking towards your future but it always surprises you when you realize that the future you had been looking towards is actually the present! I'm an adult but Im still under the care of my parents so I not a real adult yet. I think that you become a real adult when you are finally 100% on your own making your own living and living your own life without your parents constant supervision. I haven't reached that place quite yet but it is coming soon.
Here are some of Matt and Becca's engagement photos taken by Christopher Ryan Photography:
Becca is so incredibly Beautiful it is not even funny!
But you see that is a good place to be: Content. Paul wrote, "...I I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength" (Phillipians 4:11-13). Paul wrote these words while he was in prison and it is so powerful to know that he found what it was to be content in all situations and continue to live for the Lord. I think that I need to work better at staying content where the Lord has me, which right now is being single, because He has me here for a reason. So often I find that I search for the things that I think will make me happy and fulfill all the desires of my heart but really the only one who can do that is God. He created us with emptiness inside that can only be filled by Him and it's pointless for us to search out other things to fill that void. For a time those things we reach for are pleasurable but in the end they leave us empty. Contentment and true joy and happiness only comes from God.
So I guess that's where my musings come full circle. While I could turn the joy of Becca getting married into a pity party for myself I wont. I think that it is disrespectful to God when we complain about the place that He has us in life. He knows what's best for us and all the things that He puts us through, all the time He has us wait, it's all for a reason. And He loves us more than anyone else in the entire UNIVERSE! He only wants to love us and bless us and sometimes we can't see the blessing of things until we are looking back at them. Only then do we realize exactly what God had been doing through that time and we rejoice for all that He accomplished!
I am so amazed by God and the great things that He has been doing in my life. He has been creating in me a heart of complete and total surrender. For so long I held onto things that I thought would make my life happy. I distrusted God by holding onto those things and trying to work them out on my own when the whole time He was waiting for me to give them to Him so that He could work in my life. I was hindering the things that God wanted to do in my life and only when I cried out to Him for help, only when I got to the end of myself and didn't know how to continue on in my own wisdom did God shed light on the situation and release me from the things that were holding me back.
A band called Run Kid Run has a song titled "Freedom" and the lyrics say: All my chains I can't disengage no longer bound but here I stay. I scream "Father, please! I need rescuing! I need You and You alone" those lyrics are so powerful because that was my life. I was still living bound by chains that really had no control over me but I returned to them and allowed them to hold me back all the while being freed from them because of the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. I feel like so often we can continue to be controlled by fleshly desires and sin even though we have complete forgiveness and relief from it!
It's so wonderful though that God is always waiting patiently for us no matter how many times we stray away from Him! I can't even begin to comprehend that! I think of how many times I've rejected God, not really intentionally but it is rejection none-the-less, but God waits for us and He loves to bless us all the time! He wants to bless us! He doesn't need us, but He wants us! That is something to dwell on always! God is so wonderful and His love is like no other love on this earth! Just thinking about that makes it easy, easy, easy to sit here single and be happy, be content, and be completely in love with Him.
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