Missions

I have always had a heart for international travel. I love experiencing new cultures and I really enjoy visiting new places. Sometimes I fear that I am far too sheltered in the life that I live right now and I am completely ignorant to the pain and suffering throughout the world. I want to touch the lives of people in this world and shine the light of Jesus to all people and all nations!

I talked with a friend the other day about my future and about ministry and missions work overseas and it really got me to thinking about what I'm going to do with my life. I've always loved the thought of traveling to different countries I but for me it has always been short term like a month here and there. But now I feel like God is calling me to the mission field long term! This is an extremely scary thing for me to think about because I am a total family person and hate the thought of being so far away from my family for such a long time but God has really worked on my heart!

I love how God understands that we are human and therefore he works with us where we are at. He knows that we fear even though He tells us not to, but even when we do He is there to comfort us and reassure us, and that is amazing! God has really been softening my heart towards long term missions to the point where I am ready to go wherever He sends me! I can even envision myself raising a family on foreign soil which wasn't really something that I envisioned before now so that is cool! I don't know when I will go or who I will go with or even if I will be alone.

I guess for me another scary thing is that I am super desiring a husband and a family of my own and it scares me to go out onto the mission field because I think that then it will be impossible for me to meet someone which is so not true! Another thing is that I hold onto the people who are here in Corvallis and I think that my absence will destroy all of the relationships I have created here which is also a total lie that needs to be debunked ASAP! I guess the thing I keep coming back to that totally soothes me is that if I remain in God's will for my life then I don't have to fear anything because I'm right where God wants me. And God knows the things that our hearts desire and He's even put them there for a reason and so I just need to have faith that God will give me the desires of my heart even if it's not necessarily the way that I envision it in my mind.

So basically I think that I'm supposed to teach English in an Asian country which is really exciting but I don't really know where to go from here. Now I need to figure out preparation to get to the point where I can go overseas and teach! I don't think I will be going next year but sometime soon! I definitely need the preparation period before I head out which is totally fine it's just tough to figure out how to prepare and everything! It's also scary because that means that the future is that much closer because I will be totally on my own in a completely different country! Ah! Scary but exciting at the same time. It will be awesome to see what God does in these next few months/years!

I think the only thing that I really hope I get is a companion to go with me! God has brought me to a point where I am willing to go alone if I need to but I really don't want to. I don't know if it's me just being a super baby about it but I just don't want to be lonely, so I ask for a companion and I really do think that God will raise one up for me. One thing that I can testify to is that God has always been faithful to raise up at least one good, close friend for me whenever I step out in faith alone to do things for Him and I believe He will continue to do it!... It makes me slightly impatient for a husband though because then I will have a companion for life! That will be awesome! :)